Its been a while since I’ve wrote you, but please know its not because you aren’t on our minds and heart.
I think about you often during the normal course of a day. I emailed Darlene today, we have some Christmas gifts for you and I hope they let me give them to you. It will be hard to see you and talk to you. It has been nearly a month since we’ve talked. Hard to believe.
I think I’m to the next stage of grief, I don’t get way down anymore. Just sad, though that may be because I try not to ponder on it for to long because I know I’d wallow in the sadness of it all if I did. Val on the other had does get pretty down at times. We miss you. We wish you would have never left us.
I wonder what is going through your head. I wonder how you feel about things. I’m mixed on what I hope you are feeling. At one level, I hope you are missing us greatly. Though at the next level, I hope your child sized brain can’t grasp this and you are blissfully ignorant and just living life as a ten year old would.
I hope the holiday’s are treating you well. I miss you. You will forever be my daughter, even if you are not.
Your dad (if even for only 5 months),
Clarence
P.S. I don’t know when or how you will find this, but this is the fifth post directed toward you. It will not be the last. There will be days when I am thinking of you and I will send a shout out to you. I’m so sad for me, but it is nothing in comparison to what I feel for you.